Thursday, October 2, 2008

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feelin a bit shyt ryte about now....i dunno....i just am....i like just dont know how to deal with everything...i just dont fcukin get it...do i seem bloody invisble??...i guess standing next to her i do...itz not anyonez fault...i guess you just dont get to choose whud you want to feel....but it still...*sighz*...i dont know....itz very mixed i guess...very...i feel invisble..im not there..i dont want to be...i know who i am...and whud i want..and trivial thoughtz like this shouldnt even be entertained...but.....it matters a little...[actually...alot but i wont admit it]....somehow...everything i attempt i feel like im average...a jack of all tradez of sortz....and the master of none...i can do it...but not well...damnit...i have issuez...i need to get rid of this....i dont need it ryte now...i really dont....but as much as i hate to admit it...it existz...and i need to work through it...but ryte now...i dont have the strength....

that little gurl trapped and hidden is reappearing....

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